sallys haul

I went to sallys today.. and man i over spent.. 109 bucks.. but i am set to do acrylic nails in every way now.. i am very pleased.. I got a very nice manicure set for 10 bucks, It was worth a lot more.. also went to the mall.. and another great deal.. i got a wooden celtic knot and a goddess wall hanging buy 1 get 1 free . so that was 20
so much more...UM.. a new pair of slippers.. earings.. a pentagram necklace. and we had chinese for dinner

guess thats all

blessings...

Have ur self a merry little xmas

Hope your day was wonderful full of holiday cheer and love..

merry xmas

blessings

Merry Christmas

Well our xmas eve was very nice.. Alex and Nathan left for home about 8pm.. Dinner at his parents for their Xmas..
were cooking a ham here.. its a big one.. whoo hoo for left over ham..

Guess i'm gonna end it for now,. I will say ,., I always hate it when Alex goes home she lives so far away.. Not like i can get in the car and just go visit..it has to be planned..

anyway..

Holiday Blessings..

Its officially .Xmas eve

And my baby girl is here.. to visit for xmas.. her and her hubby .. are all here.. we had a very nice eveing..

I bought a few more things for the kids.. I got my unemployment back pay.. it was enough to take care of a few key items..

Schools in about a month.. I am so excieted its coming.. YAY!!

well ttyl my friends

blessings on your Yule holiday..

Been a few days

I know i said i would try to post every day.. atleast every other day. but I havnet really had anything to post about.

Well we that is my mom and I are making xmas cookies. gonna send some to my bro and sis in Il.. also were making a ginger bread house for my baby girl. LOVE YA AL!

Any way it's Yule Merry YULE. going to do my simple rit tonight.l didnt get a chance last night.. I dont really have the room for a big elaberate ritual.. so i am just going to light some candles. and thank the goddess for every thing she's done for or givin me this past year..

I guess thats about all for now..

Blessed YULE everyone

what do I want in life?

I want a good job that I enjoy.. my babies close at hand.. but self suffcient at the same time.. I dont want them to babies forever.. but I do want them close enough to visit when we want..

I want a nice place to live.. A nice car.. I want enough money to be comfortable.. I'm not tring to be greedy .. I dont want a million dollars.. Althogh it would be nice.. LOL

I don't expect every thing in life to be easy.. but again.. it would be nice..

I just want to be happy!!!

Bad weather

It is about a week till yule.. and we are suppose to have snow this weekend.. so what the heck.. no way.. i'm gonna cry .. i hate snow.. so sucks..

Morning all

i am hoping for the next month to get better. tax time is almost here. so i'll have a little cash to buy a car.. I mailed my app for extended benifits from unemployment today.. *crosses fingers* I hope I am approved.. that means a month back pay.. Wooo hooo.. i so hope so.. so I have my money for registration for school.. and I have money for the clothes I need.. I am going to continue to be positive about this. I know its going to work out.. My mom does not want me to use her car for a week or 2 till i get my money .. but I am hoping that she will give in.. its not like I'm tring to keep it all day.. drop me off pick me up.. and were all good..

Then I'll have enough money to buy a used car..
I am getting excited. One month now till orintation.. then 2 weeks later school starts.. so its still a month n a half.. but time goes by so fast.. I've already been waiting a month since I applied to go..

the closer it gets the more excited I get.. It seems like its never gonna get here. Time to start that is

anyway.. I'm off for now..

have a great day Blessings of Avalon

NOt sure about school

I'm kinda nervious now.. my cars fucked.. so how am i going to get to school.. i have the money for the regisration fee now.. but how am i going to get there.. i'm really nervous.. My mom does not want me to use her car.. even if i buy the gas and have someone drop me off and pick me up.. I'll have the money to buy a car when tax time gets here.. but thats a couple months away..

I am just going to have to talk to mom.. and see if i can work somthing out with her.. I know she needs new glasses.. hopefully if i can help her get them.. maybe she will come around and help me out till i can get back on my feet..

I so totally want to move out of her house.. be self suffeciant again.. it sucks being a 43 yr old woman with a grown married kid and a nealry grown one .. i feel like such a failure.. a fuck up.. I screw every thing up .. EVERYTHING>. it seems that i cant do aything right to save my neck.. like in the fact that i hae misplaced one of my more important meds.. I've searched for it tonight .. or rather this morning.. i'm gonna look again tomorrow.. Maybe its lost in all these clean cloths that i need to hang up .. I do need to get the rest washed and hang what needs to e hanged.. and put away the rest in the chest..


But on a brighter note.. I should be recieving part of my yule gift tomorrow.. schecdled to be here.. from fed ex.. about 7 brushes from elf cosmetics.. I cant wait for them to get here.. then in about 4 more days the rest of my yule gift should be here.. i got a whole set of cream eye shadow from elf.. I havent used their makeup yet.. heres my frist try.. hopefully its good.. its cheap makeup .. but i am finding cheap dont mean every thing..
yes you do get what you pay for.. but you have to be frugel when your on a tight budget.. .. which we are.. since we have lost just about every thing due to both myself and my boyfriend of 5 yrs loosing our jobs very clost to the same time.. like with in a couple weeks

then my care broke down..
thought it just jumped time.. but hell idk somthing else is wrong with it .. idk exaclty but the shop wants 1k to fix it.. and i dont have it..
i so want my car back.. i just dont know what to do .. Goddess please share some of your wisdom with me.. and help me through this.. I think i will most diff have to do a blue moon rit.. this month on 12/31.. which is my bf bday..


Dec is going to be a busy month.. not only is it smas.. which my family still celebrates. Im the only witch in teh family..
so xmas eve.. and my uncle pats bday.. xmas and my sis bf bd.. and 12/31 is my bf bday.. he'll hit the big 40 .. yep i robbed the craddle.. but at our age.. 3 yrs dont really make much of a diff..

Oh yeah i have good news. Josh my 16 yr old actually went to school every day last week.. its wonderfull. Getting him to get up and go to school is an issue every monting..
but i have had to make some strict rules and stick by them.. cut off his allowance.. not gonna pay him to sit on his ass and do nothing which includes not going to schoo.. not only that.. it was lap top repo and the card that makes the satilite box work.. he bascally had a bed .. its a bedroom anyway not an entertainment room

Josh has a lot of issues steaming from when robert and i started dating and him moving in.. he feels like i treated his sister better. i dont think i did.. and then i throw robert in the mix and he feels he has less attention.. I am trying so hard to make up for that.. but maybe to little to late.. I hope not.. I am trying ..

anyway im gonna end this for now.. my meds are finally kicking in and i am getting so sleepy ..

Blessings of Avalon..

May the Goddess look down upon you with love and her healing energy..

night all I'll post at ya later.. leave comments if you want.. I would love to hear what you all have to say

just fine and dandy NOT!

My car is junk.. its gonna cost more then his worth to fix it.. besides that i dont have that much money.. they want 1k.. i have a little more then half of that. I told them to keep it..

I dont know what im going to do about school now..

it seems i am totally screwed!

ONE WORD... "COLD"

This morning it is 15 degrees F out.

thats all i have to say right now!

scary thing

I had to take my son to school this morning.. As i always do when taking him to school .. i took a short cut. alternant n 220 .. the road was clear. i went through just fine.. i dropped him off at school.. turned around to go home.. and in the 5 minutes it took to drop him off a tree .. not just a little limb, a whole tree was laying across the road.. if i had been five minutes later it would have hit the car.. All i can say is THANK YOU GODDESS for protecting me..


blessings for now..

it never fails

every damn momrnning its the same fucking fight.. i am so sick of it.. you would think by now.. my son who is 16 would have figured it out..

He makes me so angry.. and my boyfriend is not much better.. running his mouth.. ask him to leave me alone.. he just gets mad.. i have to go nuts and be mean to make anyone understand..

i am so frustrated.. i could scram

good news

I got in touch with the school i want to go to today.. and was told i was aproved for a pell grant.. which is most of the tution.. YAY!!.. so i go for orintation on 1/16 and start 1/26.. Now I just have to come up with 350 bucks by 1/16.. I am totally not sure I know how that is going to happen.. But goddess please help me figure it out..

I really need to go to school and learn a trade to support myself and my family..

On.. another note.. I think I am finally making a believer out of my son.. He is still pulling the same old bs.. but he is finally giving in .. and doing what he knows he is suppose to do.. that means going to school.. I over slept again today.. my clock was flashing when i woke up at 7am. and hour later then i was meant to get up..
it took me 3 hours to get josh moving but by 10am he was in school.. this I am so very happy about.. and really a little shocked that he actually went..

So tonight.. i have his computer.. and will do so every night at 10pm.. that way he can not stay up allnight playing video games

so i am gonna say goodnight now..

blessings for a happy yule..

Posting

We had a busy day yesterday, with kinda doing a facelift on the living room .. getting ready for christmas.. painting and what not.. This is why no post yesterday.. it seems like i wont get to it but once every other day.. so .... I will if I can everyday.. if not atleast every other day..


blessings.

12/4/09

I missed writing last night.. i was up to 10pm. i was so tired.. i got up at 6 am.. I know poor me .. no nap.. what ever shall i do lmao.. just kidding.. i didnt take a nap.. so i was actually sleepy at bed time.. so sorry i missed yesterday

however I finally got an estamate on my car.. 400 .. if no vales are bent.. I pray there is not.. but the timing belt is broke..

I didnt think josh was gonna go to school today.. i overslept. it was seven thrity when i woke up ..

he finally went.. after i threated to call the police and keep his computer and satilte box card..

So he finally went.. he was late.. but that was my fault.. atleast he went

good bye for now..

blessings

Boring day

I guess i decided to make a post each day .. even if it was a boring day, there must be somthing to say.. Well today it rained.. we had bacon cheese burgers for dinner .. I havent heard from My daughter in two days .. that worries me ..
I ordered makeup brushes saturday... they havent got here yet..

I'm feeling ok.. a little irratated at ppl expecting me to do things i dont want to d.. every one seems to be in a mood today.. but i am reminded by raven that it is a full moon .. so that would explain it .. but other then that.. its just another day

kids

UGH!! my son is sick.. for the first time this year.. even though he has missed more school then allowed.. So that means he has F'd up.. I have to take him to get a doctors note or he is in truancy .. I so much do not want to do this..

more youtube makeup ppl

http://www.youtube.com/user/kandeejohnson Kandee Johnson. I love her.. she is just the nicest person Kandee is a professional makeup artist.. I want to be her when I grow up

http://www.youtube.com/user/xsparkage Leesha.. a young woman.. but talented

cosmetic recipes by Enkore

all recipes that follow are from Enkore.. you can find him on youtube doing tutorials for these recpies here http://www.youtube.com/user/EnKoreMakeup

Finishing spray
I c distilled b water plus 6 table spoons
1 green tea bad
1 c chopped into small pieces cucumber
4 drops tea tree oil
2 drops rose oil
glycerin
1 drop each of the following oils
Sage
Lemon
Rosemary
Lavender

Bring to boi the distilled water. And l turn off and add add to Green tea bag add chopped
Cucumber to the water and tea
while the water is cooling line a meaureing cup with a coffee filter when cool take out the tea bag and strain the mixture through the coffee filter
Add four drops of Tea tree oil next add 2 drops of Rose oil/ rose water
Optional oils one drop of each
Sage
Lemon
Rosemary
Lavender
2 tables spoons of glycerin
add 4 tablespoons of mixture to 6 table spoons of water.. and pour into a spritser bottle



Mixing medium
1 part glycerin
3 parts water


Makup brush cleaner
1 cup distilled water
1/4 cup alcohol
1/2 table spoon detergint.. dish washing soap palmolive is recommened
1/2 table spoon shampoo baby shampoo
1 tbl condtioner *leave in* I bought a detangler for this

mixing jar

container

empty nest

Well not quite empty .. but half way there.. It wont be long till it is empty. a couple years. My son is 16 now.

My daughter and her husband came to visit.. they live an hour or so away.. they stay 1 day and 2 nights.. I miss her already .. I love my little girl. Even if she is'nt so little any more.

They picked up a few of the things I gave them for their new place. In two weeks they are moving out in to their first home..

It is almost surreal that I have a child old enough to be married. I sit here going wow. I dont feel that old, but yeah I am old enough. I have old high school friends who have grandchildren. which totally blows my mind.

I miss Alex already. I really wish she didnt live so far away. I totally wish my car was out of the shop.. I'll be able to go visit her when it I finally get it back.

Thats a plus. Another plus is she wont be in her mother and father n laws home..thats one of the reason i don't go visit. They don't like me. I'm not christian. And they are holy rollers.

I have more to say .. i could ramble on.. but i feel that I need to stop here before I say somthing that might up set my daughter.

so.. goodbye for now friends..

blessed be..

I am amazed.

At thanksgiving dinner tonight.. well actually after we ate.. my mom.. my aunt.. my cousin Becky and 2 of her kids were sitting at the table talking..Some how the topic of ghost come up.. I was suprised that my aunt and her family well my aunt and my cousin beleived in ghost..Infact said they have experinced them.. The one thing that amazed me was.. well to explain.. I have to say, My grandpa Brooks died in june 84 .. the night we got home from his funeral my mom went to bed. A couple hours later she came running out of her room yelling he's in there.. daddys in there..

Come to find out my aunt Margaret had the same experince the same night.. in the same manor .. she was in bed. woke up to see him standing at the foot of her bed and ran yelling from her room he was in there..

This just goes to prove to me what I have always said.. that he came to say good bye before he moved on to summerland..

all in all this was a pretty good dinner.. I had fun.. just having family around


Blessed Be my friends..

Have a great night

Happy Thanksgiving..

Today is the day we celebrate and give thanks for the food that we have the place that we live..

Indians helped the pilgrims find food for the winter.. and to thank them the pilgrims gave them a dinner.

Then the proptly stole their land and killed the indians ... calling them savages, and heatherns.. Why because they were not christians.. I guess that means to the christians that if you dont do what we do.. say what we say.. live like we live..judge like we judge.. will then your just not worth the salt their god supposidtly put in the earth

My family history derivies from so many places.. I have a great grandmother who was a cherokee indian ... i have family that came from Scotland about 6 generations back.. theres also , English, and French I'm told

I guess that makes me a mutt.. So what family history do I follow..

As an American born and bred.. We have lost all of the traditions of our ancestorys..
we have no idea how they even lived.. what they believed.. or anything else about them

I know that from my history that the indians believed in more then one goddess/god.
I also know that the Scots had Pagan gods
So I choose to follow a pagan path.. I did some research and found that my faternal grandmother whose madian name was McCaig was the part of my family from Scotland.. and that the Mc Caig family was part of the Clan Mc Cloud .. no kidding.. I'm decended from members of the clan McCloud.. Watch out Duncan and Conner.. Lmao

Any way.. I am sitting here putting on my makeup getting ready to go to my aunts for thanksgiving, and thinking .. I miss the big family gatherings of my childhood.
When my family would go to my grandmas for all hoildays .. My moms sisters and borhters... their wives/husbands and their kids... Now my brothers and sisters dont even come for holidays.. That is because they live so far away truthfully..
I mean with my mom, me, and my kids living in TN.. and my brother and sister in Il..and my dad and my other bro in KS its a not like you can hope in the car and be here in 10 min anymore..

That all Change when my grandma passed away in 1997 .. I miss her even today and its 12 yrs later.. But we all have to go sometime.Grandma who was Edith Juanita Pittman Brooks went by the way of cancer.. Lung cancer that traveled to her brain to be exact..

I do believe that she comes by at time and visits us.. to check up on her family.. She was a wonderful woman..

So now its a little after noon.. and we have to be at my aunts at 2pm.. so I need to get my son moving in the shower and ready to go.. Myself too..

Alex and her husband Nathan will be here this eventing.. I am happy.. I'll tell you more about Alex later.. my 18 yr old who is married and moving out for the first time.. Man does that make me feel old.


So I hope every one has a great thanksgiving and I'll talk to you later on..

Blessed be

About Me!

I am a mother of two.. and in a relationship for the past five years..
My two are Alex 18, who married this past April, and Josh 16.
I have been a thrid party bill collector since 1996, I am unemployed at the moment.
So that leads me to my next choice.. I am going back to beauty school.. yes I am a beauty school drop out.. I went to beauty school when I was a teenager.. blah, blah, blah .. read my previous post.. I explained it already ..

I started this blog I was going to give my whole lifes story.. but, eh, not sure thats a good idea at this time.. maybe some other time.

for now.. I am just going to focus on whats ahead ..

so .. here's to the future.. and many more post.. and maybe some conversations.., in the meant time..

Blessed Be..

howdy

sitting at home.. in front of this computer.. just a normal day .. getting ready to go out into the world.. another meeting.. things never seem to end..

hi..Hi, I'm Sue.. but to some people I'm Blue.No, I'm not sad.. thats a name I use in the Pagan community.I started this blog to chronicle the next year of my life.. or maybe a little longer. who knows.. I am a mother. a witch and love the world of beauty. I am not a professional in the beauty world.. but hope to be soon.. If every thing goes right I plan to go to beauty school in Jan. 2010..

Yes I've been before.. but i was a teenager. and didnt finish.. I quit at 1000 hours.. which is pretty dumb cuz you only need 1500 to graduate.., but I was young and stupid.. I hope I've learned a little in the last 20 yrs.., or so.. anyway. I have to head out the door right now. so ..I'll post more later.. and tell you about myself