sallys haul

I went to sallys today.. and man i over spent.. 109 bucks.. but i am set to do acrylic nails in every way now.. i am very pleased.. I got a very nice manicure set for 10 bucks, It was worth a lot more.. also went to the mall.. and another great deal.. i got a wooden celtic knot and a goddess wall hanging buy 1 get 1 free . so that was 20
so much more...UM.. a new pair of slippers.. earings.. a pentagram necklace. and we had chinese for dinner

guess thats all

blessings...

Have ur self a merry little xmas

Hope your day was wonderful full of holiday cheer and love..

merry xmas

blessings

Merry Christmas

Well our xmas eve was very nice.. Alex and Nathan left for home about 8pm.. Dinner at his parents for their Xmas..
were cooking a ham here.. its a big one.. whoo hoo for left over ham..

Guess i'm gonna end it for now,. I will say ,., I always hate it when Alex goes home she lives so far away.. Not like i can get in the car and just go visit..it has to be planned..

anyway..

Holiday Blessings..

Its officially .Xmas eve

And my baby girl is here.. to visit for xmas.. her and her hubby .. are all here.. we had a very nice eveing..

I bought a few more things for the kids.. I got my unemployment back pay.. it was enough to take care of a few key items..

Schools in about a month.. I am so excieted its coming.. YAY!!

well ttyl my friends

blessings on your Yule holiday..

Been a few days

I know i said i would try to post every day.. atleast every other day. but I havnet really had anything to post about.

Well we that is my mom and I are making xmas cookies. gonna send some to my bro and sis in Il.. also were making a ginger bread house for my baby girl. LOVE YA AL!

Any way it's Yule Merry YULE. going to do my simple rit tonight.l didnt get a chance last night.. I dont really have the room for a big elaberate ritual.. so i am just going to light some candles. and thank the goddess for every thing she's done for or givin me this past year..

I guess thats about all for now..

Blessed YULE everyone

what do I want in life?

I want a good job that I enjoy.. my babies close at hand.. but self suffcient at the same time.. I dont want them to babies forever.. but I do want them close enough to visit when we want..

I want a nice place to live.. A nice car.. I want enough money to be comfortable.. I'm not tring to be greedy .. I dont want a million dollars.. Althogh it would be nice.. LOL

I don't expect every thing in life to be easy.. but again.. it would be nice..

I just want to be happy!!!

Bad weather

It is about a week till yule.. and we are suppose to have snow this weekend.. so what the heck.. no way.. i'm gonna cry .. i hate snow.. so sucks..

Morning all

i am hoping for the next month to get better. tax time is almost here. so i'll have a little cash to buy a car.. I mailed my app for extended benifits from unemployment today.. *crosses fingers* I hope I am approved.. that means a month back pay.. Wooo hooo.. i so hope so.. so I have my money for registration for school.. and I have money for the clothes I need.. I am going to continue to be positive about this. I know its going to work out.. My mom does not want me to use her car for a week or 2 till i get my money .. but I am hoping that she will give in.. its not like I'm tring to keep it all day.. drop me off pick me up.. and were all good..

Then I'll have enough money to buy a used car..
I am getting excited. One month now till orintation.. then 2 weeks later school starts.. so its still a month n a half.. but time goes by so fast.. I've already been waiting a month since I applied to go..

the closer it gets the more excited I get.. It seems like its never gonna get here. Time to start that is

anyway.. I'm off for now..

have a great day Blessings of Avalon

NOt sure about school

I'm kinda nervious now.. my cars fucked.. so how am i going to get to school.. i have the money for the regisration fee now.. but how am i going to get there.. i'm really nervous.. My mom does not want me to use her car.. even if i buy the gas and have someone drop me off and pick me up.. I'll have the money to buy a car when tax time gets here.. but thats a couple months away..

I am just going to have to talk to mom.. and see if i can work somthing out with her.. I know she needs new glasses.. hopefully if i can help her get them.. maybe she will come around and help me out till i can get back on my feet..

I so totally want to move out of her house.. be self suffeciant again.. it sucks being a 43 yr old woman with a grown married kid and a nealry grown one .. i feel like such a failure.. a fuck up.. I screw every thing up .. EVERYTHING>. it seems that i cant do aything right to save my neck.. like in the fact that i hae misplaced one of my more important meds.. I've searched for it tonight .. or rather this morning.. i'm gonna look again tomorrow.. Maybe its lost in all these clean cloths that i need to hang up .. I do need to get the rest washed and hang what needs to e hanged.. and put away the rest in the chest..


But on a brighter note.. I should be recieving part of my yule gift tomorrow.. schecdled to be here.. from fed ex.. about 7 brushes from elf cosmetics.. I cant wait for them to get here.. then in about 4 more days the rest of my yule gift should be here.. i got a whole set of cream eye shadow from elf.. I havent used their makeup yet.. heres my frist try.. hopefully its good.. its cheap makeup .. but i am finding cheap dont mean every thing..
yes you do get what you pay for.. but you have to be frugel when your on a tight budget.. .. which we are.. since we have lost just about every thing due to both myself and my boyfriend of 5 yrs loosing our jobs very clost to the same time.. like with in a couple weeks

then my care broke down..
thought it just jumped time.. but hell idk somthing else is wrong with it .. idk exaclty but the shop wants 1k to fix it.. and i dont have it..
i so want my car back.. i just dont know what to do .. Goddess please share some of your wisdom with me.. and help me through this.. I think i will most diff have to do a blue moon rit.. this month on 12/31.. which is my bf bday..


Dec is going to be a busy month.. not only is it smas.. which my family still celebrates. Im the only witch in teh family..
so xmas eve.. and my uncle pats bday.. xmas and my sis bf bd.. and 12/31 is my bf bday.. he'll hit the big 40 .. yep i robbed the craddle.. but at our age.. 3 yrs dont really make much of a diff..

Oh yeah i have good news. Josh my 16 yr old actually went to school every day last week.. its wonderfull. Getting him to get up and go to school is an issue every monting..
but i have had to make some strict rules and stick by them.. cut off his allowance.. not gonna pay him to sit on his ass and do nothing which includes not going to schoo.. not only that.. it was lap top repo and the card that makes the satilite box work.. he bascally had a bed .. its a bedroom anyway not an entertainment room

Josh has a lot of issues steaming from when robert and i started dating and him moving in.. he feels like i treated his sister better. i dont think i did.. and then i throw robert in the mix and he feels he has less attention.. I am trying so hard to make up for that.. but maybe to little to late.. I hope not.. I am trying ..

anyway im gonna end this for now.. my meds are finally kicking in and i am getting so sleepy ..

Blessings of Avalon..

May the Goddess look down upon you with love and her healing energy..

night all I'll post at ya later.. leave comments if you want.. I would love to hear what you all have to say

just fine and dandy NOT!

My car is junk.. its gonna cost more then his worth to fix it.. besides that i dont have that much money.. they want 1k.. i have a little more then half of that. I told them to keep it..

I dont know what im going to do about school now..

it seems i am totally screwed!

ONE WORD... "COLD"

This morning it is 15 degrees F out.

thats all i have to say right now!

scary thing

I had to take my son to school this morning.. As i always do when taking him to school .. i took a short cut. alternant n 220 .. the road was clear. i went through just fine.. i dropped him off at school.. turned around to go home.. and in the 5 minutes it took to drop him off a tree .. not just a little limb, a whole tree was laying across the road.. if i had been five minutes later it would have hit the car.. All i can say is THANK YOU GODDESS for protecting me..


blessings for now..

it never fails

every damn momrnning its the same fucking fight.. i am so sick of it.. you would think by now.. my son who is 16 would have figured it out..

He makes me so angry.. and my boyfriend is not much better.. running his mouth.. ask him to leave me alone.. he just gets mad.. i have to go nuts and be mean to make anyone understand..

i am so frustrated.. i could scram

good news

I got in touch with the school i want to go to today.. and was told i was aproved for a pell grant.. which is most of the tution.. YAY!!.. so i go for orintation on 1/16 and start 1/26.. Now I just have to come up with 350 bucks by 1/16.. I am totally not sure I know how that is going to happen.. But goddess please help me figure it out..

I really need to go to school and learn a trade to support myself and my family..

On.. another note.. I think I am finally making a believer out of my son.. He is still pulling the same old bs.. but he is finally giving in .. and doing what he knows he is suppose to do.. that means going to school.. I over slept again today.. my clock was flashing when i woke up at 7am. and hour later then i was meant to get up..
it took me 3 hours to get josh moving but by 10am he was in school.. this I am so very happy about.. and really a little shocked that he actually went..

So tonight.. i have his computer.. and will do so every night at 10pm.. that way he can not stay up allnight playing video games

so i am gonna say goodnight now..

blessings for a happy yule..

Posting

We had a busy day yesterday, with kinda doing a facelift on the living room .. getting ready for christmas.. painting and what not.. This is why no post yesterday.. it seems like i wont get to it but once every other day.. so .... I will if I can everyday.. if not atleast every other day..


blessings.

12/4/09

I missed writing last night.. i was up to 10pm. i was so tired.. i got up at 6 am.. I know poor me .. no nap.. what ever shall i do lmao.. just kidding.. i didnt take a nap.. so i was actually sleepy at bed time.. so sorry i missed yesterday

however I finally got an estamate on my car.. 400 .. if no vales are bent.. I pray there is not.. but the timing belt is broke..

I didnt think josh was gonna go to school today.. i overslept. it was seven thrity when i woke up ..

he finally went.. after i threated to call the police and keep his computer and satilte box card..

So he finally went.. he was late.. but that was my fault.. atleast he went

good bye for now..

blessings

Boring day

I guess i decided to make a post each day .. even if it was a boring day, there must be somthing to say.. Well today it rained.. we had bacon cheese burgers for dinner .. I havent heard from My daughter in two days .. that worries me ..
I ordered makeup brushes saturday... they havent got here yet..

I'm feeling ok.. a little irratated at ppl expecting me to do things i dont want to d.. every one seems to be in a mood today.. but i am reminded by raven that it is a full moon .. so that would explain it .. but other then that.. its just another day

kids

UGH!! my son is sick.. for the first time this year.. even though he has missed more school then allowed.. So that means he has F'd up.. I have to take him to get a doctors note or he is in truancy .. I so much do not want to do this..